i received

my grandfather’s blessing yesterday. 

my name is me although i have another.  last time i checked a “little pearl” is not mighty or able.  but in the hands of God, it is starting to make sense, just only a little bit.

                                                    Megan 

Dominant Impression
This section describes the first and dominant impression the name Megan conjures up in most people. Enormous potential, exceedingly demanding.  Great promise, great effort. Megan reflects extremes, like building the tallest building or a bridge with the largest span.  It represents tremendous ability, but will always seek an equally big challenge.  Draws people with resources and a sense of adventure.  This name is not for the lighthearted. This name possesses the greatest potential for accomplishment.  At the same time, it bears the greatest liability.  If you are not up to the job, it can ruin you. Megan represents leadership and courage.  It pushes one beyond accepted limits. Borders or racial identities mean nothing.  The world is its oyster.  It refuses to be limited by petty conventions.

Most Positive Characteristics:
Extraordinary achievements.  Farsighted.  Strength of conviction.  Unstoppable energy.  Can’t be controlled by outside forces.

Most Negative Characteristics:
Stubborn.  Sometimes lacks a destiny.  No room for weakness.  Dangerous.

Vowel Vibration
The Vowel Vibration of a name enhances or decreases the impact of the Dominant Impression, and sometimes adds a completely different flavor.  Read about the Vowel Vibration with the Dominant Impression in mind. The vowels in Megan add warmth, comfort, caring and loving support to the Dominant Impression.  The vowels in this name reflect feelings of domestic security, commitment, lasting relationships, romance, responsibility, harmony, loyalty and generosity.  One senses sympathy and compassion, as well as understanding and forgiveness.  At the same time, the vowels can make the name Megan also feel a bit stifling.  To some people, Megan stands for intrusion, lack of respect for one’s privacy, and excessive emotions. For most people, however, Megan represents a genuine desire to help others, to protect the weak, heal the sick, and comfort the old.  

Base Vibration
The Base Vibration is subtler than the Vowel Vibration, but should be considered equally important. The Base Vibration in Megan radiates mystery and a search for knowledge and wisdom.  There is a distinctly spiritual tone that makes people curious.  It reflects intelligence, seriousness, but also independence and selfsufficiency.  The base vibrations make Megan seem alien, hard to get to know, and withdrawn.  To many, they also deliver a sense of aristocracy and arrogance. The Base Vibration in Megan draws respect, even admiration.  However, it does not invite people to interact.

Overview
The Dominant Vibration and the Vowel Vibration in Megan are compatible and complement each other.  4 Stars.   The Dominant Vibration and the Base Vibration are not per se incompatible, but their qualities are reduced as a result of their association.  0 Stars.  The Vowel and Base Vibrations oppose and conflict.  1 Star.

©  Copyright 1985,  2003,  Hans Decoz.

you stood before creation

eternity in your hands

the stand - hillsong united.

<33

:))

Brink of Eternity.

In desperate hope I go and search for her

in all the corners of my room;
I find her not.

My house is small
and what once has gone from it can never be regained.

But infinite is thy mansion, my lord,
and seeking her I have to come to thy door.

I stand under the golden canopy of thine evening sky
and I lift my eager eyes to thy face.

I have come to the brink of eternity from which nothing can vanish
---no hope, no happiness, no vision of a face seen through tears.

Oh, dip my emptied life into that ocean,
plunge it into the deepest fullness.
Let me for once feel that lost sweet touch
in the allness of the universe.


Rabindranath Tagore

With Jesus it is better.

your light will shine when all else fades~~

blessed are you who are poor,

for yours is the kingdom of God.

Blessed are you who hunger now, for you will be satisfied.

Blessed are you who weep now, for you will laugh.

Blessed are you when men hate you,

when they exclude you and insult you and reject your name as evil,

because of the Son of Man.

Rejoice in that day and leap for joy, because great is your reward in heaven.  For that is how their fathers treated the prophets.

But woe to you who are rich, for you have already received your comfort.

Woe to you who are well fed now, for you will go hungry,

Woe to you who laugh now, for you will mourn and weep.

Woe to you when all men speak well of you,

for that is how their fathers treated the false prophets

(matthew 6:20-26).

blessed when we suffer and laugh in Christ.  suffering got nothing on us.  yet i realize that the past "suffering" has been a means of sanctification in my life.  had i not gone to Christ i would have been surely destroyed.  but oh how He exhorts to turn to the Cross.

i have accomplished very little work these past two days.  suffering from both a severe bout of indifference, laziness..yet profound peace at times.  i was excited to go to the bookstore but i realized i am not as crazy about books as i used to be.  perhaps it's just a phase.

but..yeah.  its kind of crazy.  i am caught up in this "sacred romance" and it makes me virtually indifferent to almost everything around me but when i just get into the normal habit of living it is no longer good enough.  i have experienced how the Holy Spirit fills me and gives me such ungraspable and inexplicable joy. 

yet life at times is in the valleys and ruts and that is where jesus meets with us and mourns with us.  both in the high and low places.  he heals us in our most broken moments and welcomes us with love and grace.

the future is SO uncertain right now.  you have no idea.  but i also am resisting worrying and trying to trust that God has good things planned for me.  even though it might not be ideal by earthly standards.

so much joy and freedom in Christ.  i have also just appreciated a proliferation and depth of and in relationships i never experienced before.  life suddenly seems to be more about grades.  now they just seem like random superficial letters.

life seems soo good.  God is so gracious and life is precious.  every day just seems like an amazing gift from the Lord.  it's interesting how i have also been just sleeping sooooooooooo much.  i slept perhaps 12-13 hours today.  for absolutely no reason.  it's as though i am just more relaxed in general.

i am so much less sensitive to the gazes of others, the judgement of others.  i am only concerned with pleasing my commanding officer.  it might sound like laziness at times in regard to not working, but i have been discovering profound rest in the Lord.  that He calls us also to not just run to and fro but also enjoy and savor life.

although i am still so far from being perfected, i am starting to realize that even in suffering God is purifying me and making me more like Him.  i know life can be interrupted at any time from the coming of my King and i should be more alert..

how gracious is God and how vast is the universe we live in.  how vast is each individual person.  i just pray i just pray i just pray that He will have mercy on my soul and continuously pour out His blessings and goodness upon me.  even as they seem to cease i know that God is faithful..i just pray that i will remain strong in the faith and run the race with perseverance...all the way toward and through the tape...

better than a fairytale <3

is life. true life and eternal life. i know the beginning and i know what is to come. my King, my one and only King is coming soon for me. God calls my name by grace. by grace, i hear my name called quite distinctly in the whisper and echoed from the mountaintops.

my heart leaps and bounds it is the middle that is the hard part but so much greater the glory and i get precious glimpses now and then but i know there is yet so much more beauty to be revealed and to be known, hehe :))

it’s kind of soggy in ze new haven and my body is aching like an old granny… i asked an old man who “missed” his mother where she was and he said she passed away awkward but i felt so joyful for her mannn am i crazy or what for some reason, i know,

i really know that she is in a good place. also, i know and understand that even as i feel so much pressure.

i will not be broken. because i stand on an unshakeable rock. it’s quite incredible knowing this. i have become so much bolder than i usually am and i expect to make many enemies but in some ways i find that God allows me to live at peace, and not just at peace but love everyone. faith is such a gift. and although i absolutely loathe some of my secular classes that are completely against the knowledge of God i wage war with God on my side,

i know, because i remain in Him and while idols will fall and become a burden on those who bear them i pray that they may be dissolved all the more quickly my God is different. my God is the only and only, the Alpha and the Omega who bears my sufferings and griefs; yes, He is different. His yoke is light, and i the weary traveler find i can always rest and drink life in His blood and never be unsatisfied. He does not let me go hungry or

thirsty and my heart feels as light as a feather oh Gentle and Precious Lord and Savior i pray that your face will shine upon me always give me your peace despite the storms and tragedies of the world and the selfish pursuits of my heart towards riches on earth… i pray to love more deeply and grow deeper into and with

and

alongside you.

you alone for you alone are the

gateway to eternal life and the safe pasture for the

megan-sheep puha

hah

a

love always.